im depressed

maybe its because I'm older than him. but is it just me who's thinking about our future? what happens when we get married? yeah, I would work. i can be a nurse. but can he make it? tI have to admit, I think my parents are going to eat him alive. he can't support me. what kind of job cn he do? odd jobs? and earn what? I am so freaking scared right now. this is the reason why i have to study.

I guess what my mom said is also true. when you marry a man that grew up in the philippines, there's 80% chances that you will be the breadwinner (woman). I think I can see that now. it just breaks my heart. I want to prove my mother wrong. but apparently, she seems right in that part. I guess I just hve to be ready for hardship when I marry him.

I also agree that love is important in relationships. but in the long run, i think the love would also suffer if you guys would keep on fighting about financial things.

I hope my baby would also realize that. in the present time, hard work is not enough. you need a degree and a strong stomach and be a hard worker.

life is tough. I just hope I can make it. I just hope that we can make it.

im depressed

maybe its because I'm older than him. but is it just me who's thinking about our future? what happens when we get married? yeah, I would work. i can be a nurse. but can he make it? tI have to admit, I think my parents are going to eat him alive. he can't support me. what kind of job cn he do? odd jobs? and earn what? I am so freaking scared right now. this is the reason why i have to study.

I guess what my mom said is also true. when you marry a man that grew up in the philippines, there's 80% chances that you will be the breadwinner (woman). I think I can see that now. it just breaks my heart. I want to prove my mother wrong. but apparently, she seems right in that part. I guess I just hve to be ready for hardship when I marry him.

I also agree that love is important in relationships. but in the long run, i think the love would also suffer if you guys would keep on fighting about financial things.

I hope my baby would also realize that. in the present time, hard work is not enough. you need a degree and a strong stomach and be a hard worker.

life is tough. I just hope I can make it. I just hope that we can make it.

im depressed

maybe its because I'm older than him. but is it just me who's thinking about our future? what happens when we get married? yeah, I would work. i can be a nurse. but can he make it? tI have to admit, I think my parents are going to eat him alive. he can't support me. what kind of job cn he do? odd jobs? and earn what? I am so freaking scared right now. this is the reason why i have to study.

I guess what my mom said is also true. when you marry a man that grew up in the philippines, there's 80% chances that you will be the breadwinner (woman). I think I can see that now. it just breaks my heart. I want to prove my mother wrong. but apparently, she seems right in that part. I guess I just hve to be ready for hardship when I marry him.

I also agree that love is important in relationships. but in the long run, i think the love would also suffer if you guys would keep on fighting about financial things.

I hope my baby would also realize that. in the present time, hard work is not enough. you need a degree and a strong stomach and be a hard worker.

life is tough. I just hope I can make it. I just hope that we can make it.

I cant take this anymore

I am so freakin depressed. I dont know where I should go. noone can understand me. I hat my life. DAmn UP.Damn it!!!!

fine, As I was looking through all the websites, looking at the accelerated nursing schools, pharmacy schools, medical schools.... thee was one realization: tang inang UP!!!! I hate my low grades. I cant get into any damn school. dumudugo na ang uta ko dito sa US. for the past week I've been crying myself to sleep every night. pero syempre hindi ko nmn masabikahit kanino that im having identity crisis diba?

if I wanna get ahead, I only have one option: go back to the philippines and study either medicine or nursing. at least my grades are good enough there and everyon knows that I came from a good school.

but I also have a problem: my mom. she thinks she's taking care of me, butin reality, I am also taking care of her.

Does she always have to blame me? fine! its already my fault that I didnt take up nursing. fine. i get it already.

I want to become a DOCTOR!!! up to now. I still want to become a doctor. huhuhu!!! hindi ko na kaya ito!!!!!!!!!! dun lang ako matatanggap sa pilipinas eh. waaa!!! nababaliw na ako. waaa!!!!

please kill me now. waaaaaaaaaaaa!!! AYOKO NAA WAAA!!! WAAA WAAA!!!!!

I cant take this anymore

I am so freakin depressed. I dont know where I should go. noone can understand me. I hat my life. DAmn UP.Damn it!!!!

fine, As I was looking through all the websites, looking at the accelerated nursing schools, pharmacy schools, medical schools.... thee was one realization: tang inang UP!!!! I hate my low grades. I cant get into any damn school. dumudugo na ang uta ko dito sa US. for the past week I've been crying myself to sleep every night. pero syempre hindi ko nmn masabikahit kanino that im having identity crisis diba?

if I wanna get ahead, I only have one option: go back to the philippines and study either medicine or nursing. at least my grades are good enough there and everyon knows that I came from a good school.

but I also have a problem: my mom. she thinks she's taking care of me, butin reality, I am also taking care of her.

Does she always have to blame me? fine! its already my fault that I didnt take up nursing. fine. i get it already.

I want to become a DOCTOR!!! up to now. I still want to become a doctor. huhuhu!!! hindi ko na kaya ito!!!!!!!!!! dun lang ako matatanggap sa pilipinas eh. waaa!!! nababaliw na ako. waaa!!!!

please kill me now. waaaaaaaaaaaa!!! AYOKO NAA WAAA!!! WAAA WAAA!!!!!