I cant take this anymore

I am so freakin depressed. I dont know where I should go. noone can understand me. I hat my life. DAmn UP.Damn it!!!!

fine, As I was looking through all the websites, looking at the accelerated nursing schools, pharmacy schools, medical schools.... thee was one realization: tang inang UP!!!! I hate my low grades. I cant get into any damn school. dumudugo na ang uta ko dito sa US. for the past week I've been crying myself to sleep every night. pero syempre hindi ko nmn masabikahit kanino that im having identity crisis diba?

if I wanna get ahead, I only have one option: go back to the philippines and study either medicine or nursing. at least my grades are good enough there and everyon knows that I came from a good school.

but I also have a problem: my mom. she thinks she's taking care of me, butin reality, I am also taking care of her.

Does she always have to blame me? fine! its already my fault that I didnt take up nursing. fine. i get it already.

I want to become a DOCTOR!!! up to now. I still want to become a doctor. huhuhu!!! hindi ko na kaya ito!!!!!!!!!! dun lang ako matatanggap sa pilipinas eh. waaa!!! nababaliw na ako. waaa!!!!

please kill me now. waaaaaaaaaaaa!!! AYOKO NAA WAAA!!! WAAA WAAA!!!!!