The Things I love about you

I am just transferring this from my other blog.



I love the way you helped me out the first time I was at work trying to get my diet coke out of the vending machine.

I love the way you try to fix your schedule so that we can be together at breaks.

I love it when you introduced me into your circle of friends and all of you welcomed me with open arms.

I love the way you try to teach me new things especially kayaking and surfing.

I love the way you introduced my to the people who are important to you, making me feel important to you too.

I love the way you hate wearing gel on your hair, making it look flat yet making you so adorable.

I love the way you massage my feet and body especially when I'm tired.

I love the way you call me at night just to tell me that you're about to sleep and that you'll love me.

I love the surprises that you give me.

I love the way you cook for me.

I love the way you give me flowers for no reason

I love the way you know how I'm feeling without me telling you anything

I love the way you support me

I love the way you cried when I was crying.

I love the way you still love me even if I didn't love you then.

I love the way you proposed to me

I love the way you played the violin for me

I love the way we danced in your balcony under the stars

I love the way you sleep, looking so innocent and cute.

I love the way you read, with you eyebrows all bunched up together

I love the way you hug me and kiss me

I love the way you try to make me watch scary movies

I love the way you try to watch chick flicks with me

I love the way you drive

I love the way you play golf, all professional looking an so dashing!

I love the way you try to protect me from all the hurt

I love the way you hold me

I love the way you smile at me across the room

I love it when we go shopping together at publix and you paying my supermarket bill. nyahaha!

I love it when we take our dogs together to the dogpark and we just run around with them.

I love it when jake treats you like a daddy and noelle treats me like a mommy. ^_^

I love it when people mistake us as a married couple

I love it when you brush other good looking girls who try to hit on you and tell them you're not interested because you're with "your woman"

I love it when you would drive 50 miles just to go to my place and help me out.

I love it when we just go out in the beach at night and we just watch the stars and talk about our dreams and about the future.

I love the way you talk about us.

I love the way you turn red when I catch you doing something naughty

This list is endless. but one last thing: I love the way you told me you'll wait for me and that you'll love me until the end of time. szeretlek narvik

tired

so tired. so tired. i cant help it. I'm just... tired.

hoping that someone will catch me. I mean, really catch me. I'm still holding on to that promise. my one last hope. someone remove me from my misery.


I dont want to do this... but I have to. for my sake. for my sanity. I love myself.


he loves me. can I love him back the way he loves me? is that possible? my head hurts from thinking to much. I wish I'm stupid so that I would just marry him. haha. stupid head. stupid heart. pathetic tlaga.

hindi manlang pla ako ipaglalaban ulit ng bf ko. haha!fun realization. wahaha!

uh oh... does this call for a sleep over? wahaha!

I'm going over there now.

I promise.

I promise. I wish I can fast forward the time...Every time I look at your eyes I can see the pact we made that day. it started out as a joke, but it suddenly took a serious turn.

Is It bad? I love holding your hand it feels so natural to hold it. I never thought about it, but suddenly I keep on craving for it.

I made the decision not to see you often anymore. I know he wouldn't know. but I really am falling for you. I know you cried to your sister about me. she told me.

how I wish I can give you my heart. What you said was true. when I was at my breaking point with my boyfriend. I wanted to run away. to go to you. you were the person who saved me.

I just have to stop these feelings for you. but thank you. thank you for understanding me. thank you for the promise. that promise is the only one I'm holding on to. I know you wouldn't break your promise. you're different from the other people I know. you're not like other guys who promises somethings but wouldnt do it. you always keep your promise. that's why I love you. you are so reliable. you are so kind and caring... noone can help it but fall in love with you.

I'm sorry I gave you back the ring. its not yet time for me to accept it. I am really sorry. maybe... when the time is right...maybe I'll be able to wear it....

I still have the heart pendant you gave to me though. that I can't give back to you. it symbolizes the things we went through, our experiences...the feelings.... I will always wear it...forever. I promise. I know you would also wear the gift I have given you. we made the exchange. I never felt so connected to someone.

Every time i feel so sad, I just think about you and our times together, and I immediately feel happy. you made my life worthwhile. its funny how things work out right?

thank you for sharing with me everything, for sharing my dreams, for sharing your dreams, for including me in your future...thank you.

having you in my life is a miracle given to me by god.

too many guys... too little time

my gosh my gosh my gosh!!

I know I'm bad. I'm really bad. but I rally can't help it. especially when my bf treats me like crap and there seems to be a dozen guys coming over to me, hitting on me and making me feel as if I'm worth a million dollars. haha!

oh well.... I realized one thing. if my boyfriend doesnt like me, then i will find someone else who will. haha! I already have 2 people lined up who are VERY VERY GOOD PROSPECTS. wahahaha! I already stopped feeling sorry for myself. if he does not like me, then I can't do anything about it anymore.

at least I know I gave it my all. thats it. I gave it my best shot. he does not want it, then I can't do anything about it. hah! so there!

you say you are jealous? yeah right. you say you love me? prove it. other people seem to have proven it better than you did. hah! so there.



i have roses in front of me, chocolates in my fridge, several stuffed toys in my room, all from different people. they gave it to me because they want me. they call me up all the time because they want me. because they care for me.

I dont cheat on my partner. everyone of these suitors of mine know that i have a boyffriend. but all of them know that I'm a sucker for attention.


hahaha! hahah! just venting out my frustration. haha! sa totoo lang. ang lakas ng temptation....


parang....


gusto ko ....


na mag asawa ng mayaman....

at minamahal ako...

para I can study what I want....

para i dont have the pressure of trying to make it in the world...

para may sasalo na sakin....

para hindi na ako maghihirap....

para may magmamahal sakin ng katulad ng pagmamahal ko sa kanila....

masakit

It hurts when you leave someone, but It hurts more when someone leaves you. I can feel it now. my baby already left me. physically, emotionally, spiritually. I never thought we would end this way. I guess he already found someone new. I honestly don't know if I can take it. I have a knife beside me. all I need is to plunge it.

I feel really hurt. REALLY REALLY hurt. my god. help me. help me bear with this pain. help me. give me courage to go through this. i'm really scared. I am so fucking scared lord. I can't help it.

I gave all of my love to him. for him. I am ready to make big steps for him. hindi ko na kaya ito. sobrang sakit. I feel like I would burst.

my head is throbbing. I dont want to call or talk to anyone. I am just scared. too scared. please help me out. hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa buhay ko.

professionally wala. relationship-wise, nada. so what am I? nothing? chopped liver?

kill me. please. I beg you.

to my baby....

thank you for having the courage to tell me. I do hope you'll change your mind.

please be brave enough for the two of us. it is for our future too. believe me, you have nothing to lose, but more to gain. I will always be with you every step of the way.

don't be afraid of things. one of the reasons why I fell in love with you (in love with you still) is that you know what is right. and you follow through things. you persevere in issues/moments that need persevering and I really admire you for that.

all the things i wish for are not bad for you. everything I wish for you are good things.


wag ka magpadala sa past experiences mo. we can start all over. a clean slate. nobody will know the past. only the present.... and hopefully a glimpse of the future.

what happened to other people will not happen to you. life is really short, we can't experience everything and learn everything, that's why we need to learn from others' experiences too, so that we may enjoy life more.

what happened to your uncle will not happen to you. I'm not gonna let that happen. over my friggin dead body. please reconsider your choice on what to do in the near future.


you keep on asking me how come I love you when someone who seems "better" is lurking around me.

I will say it again. he is not YOU.

I told you before and I'll tell it to you again, I gave you my heart. it's up to you whatever you want to do with it. stomp on it, kick it, break it into hundreds of pieces, I dont care.

I dont give my love to anyone freely. but with you, if there anything better than free, then that is what you have.

to my baby:

hello. wala lang. I guess you're wondering bakit ako nagsulat sayo ng letter.

kasi, it is still bugging me why you dont want to study. I feel bad because you can't seem to remove that fear from your mind. maybe youre not that mature yet that's why you can't see the purpose why I want you to continue your studies.

you are a very bright person, and yet your fear hinders you from being your best.

sa gusto mo na ba maging call center agent forever? is that how you see our life?

look inside yourself, you know you are meant for greater things than being shouted at. you have a chance to be your own boss, to shine.

buti sana if i'm asking you to do bad things... pero kahit baliktarin mo ang mundo, hindi masama ito. it is also for your own good.

do you know how proud I am when you told me that you already told your parents about taking up nursing? I was so proud of you. do you know why? I can already see you maturing right before my eyes. I was thinking: "now this is the man. This is my man. he knows what's best for us"


you told me your greatest fear is not meeting my expectations.... do you want to know my expectation? I expect you to TRY. just try. how hard would it be to try?

trying is not the same as failing. it's a gamble, yes. but at least you TRIED. and I would be so proud of you, just by trying. pwede nmn hindi nursing lang eh. you can study other things... pwede ka mag IT or something else... a better paying job, kung saan pwede ka pang umakyat sa corporate ladder....

dont close yourself to just being a call center agent. that is the most immature way to think of things baby. you have great potential. you just have to tap into that.

you know yourself baby.remember when you told me you got a 98 on your biology subject? it is a sign that you are very intelligent, you just have to get your groove on.

also remember that you are not the only one in the boat. kasama mo rin ako. buti sana kung iiwan kita sa hangin. hindi kita iiwan baby. you know that. I made you a promise that I will love you & I would take care of you, but can you also help me help you?

totoo, mahirap mag memorize.napagdaanan ko yan. nakita mo nnmn kung gaano karami ang halaman at gamot sa mundo... alam ko ang mga scientific name nila and medicinal purposes. it took me a long time. pero up to now, hindi ko pa rin sobrang alam yan.

you dont have to memorize everything. help me help you enjoy things. we may not be in the same school, but I'll be your tutor, & your slave.

hindi ko pinuput down baby ang mga call center agents, but it really is not healthy. you can earn more with lesser hours with more time for yourself, just earn a degree. you know that for a fact baby. why not take a risk?

is it because of another girl too? kaya nag iba ang decision mo?

let me tell you something, every girl loves their boyfriend differently. the girl you're looking at right now may want you because your taken, or because of your good traits (believe me, you have a lot). but they may also find someone who is better than you (maraming ganyang babae tlga. believe me, may mga kilala akong ganyan)

and you will be left with nothing. I'm not like that. a year seems short to tell a person that you know them well. but I also know that you know, I never joke around when it comes to love. when I give you my word, it really is my word. I never break it.

when I tell you I'm behind you, close your eyes, you will still feel my presence.

I hope you will think MATURELY baby. this is for your future... and our future.

palagi mo saking sinasabi nag ang mga chinese dapat sila ang bumubuhay sa pamilya, na sila ang dapat nagdadala... na may pride kayo... na responsable kayo...

I'm ready to see more of that in you. :D

you know what is right... and you know that nobody can love you the way I do.



sorry baby, I just want to write this down. I'm sorry I'm hurting you by writing this down, pero sana tlga maicp mo ng mabuti.

I love you very much asawa ko! sana hindi ka magalit. T_T

I feel sad

my baby does not seem to want to talk to me. *sob* oh well. i guess he does not miss me enough.

I had grown so dependent on him. I never thought I would but I did. oh well.


at least I have someone else to lean on to. :D maybe I should go to his house today and spend the whole day with him. that would be nice. ^_^

I hope we can go to the beach. then he would rub sunblock on my back.... *sigh* must not let imagination run wild.

remember, you are just friends. he may want ore but you can't. dont ever EVER forget that.

why does he have to be so darn cute?! and sweet and sexy, and charming, and so caring and so sensitive....

why does he have to look at e with those soulful eyes of his that seems to make me the only person he would care about? WHY?! argggggghhhhhhh!