im depressed

maybe its because I'm older than him. but is it just me who's thinking about our future? what happens when we get married? yeah, I would work. i can be a nurse. but can he make it? tI have to admit, I think my parents are going to eat him alive. he can't support me. what kind of job cn he do? odd jobs? and earn what? I am so freaking scared right now. this is the reason why i have to study.

I guess what my mom said is also true. when you marry a man that grew up in the philippines, there's 80% chances that you will be the breadwinner (woman). I think I can see that now. it just breaks my heart. I want to prove my mother wrong. but apparently, she seems right in that part. I guess I just hve to be ready for hardship when I marry him.

I also agree that love is important in relationships. but in the long run, i think the love would also suffer if you guys would keep on fighting about financial things.

I hope my baby would also realize that. in the present time, hard work is not enough. you need a degree and a strong stomach and be a hard worker.

life is tough. I just hope I can make it. I just hope that we can make it.