SELFISH?
okay, okay. who's selfish again? is it me? who likes to take up nursing? is it me? up to now i still feel like i am in a dream. I go to class but my heart is not into it. i keep on trying to convince myself that i'll BE a NURSE. but it still doesnt want to reach my heart.
fine. I finally agreed to my mother's wish. she wants me to be a nurse. fine. to make YOU happy i'll be a nurse. but on one condition: I'd be a BSN. a bachelor of Science in nursing. yes. I dont want to be an RN only. I want to be a BSN-RN graduate. jeez. please leave me some pride. I dont even have pride left inside me anymore. i dont know if its even pride. my dream of becoming a doctor is becoming dimmer by the minute. the dream that has been my source of energy to study hard and to aim for up is now being extinguished fast.
no, its not by me, its by my mother. yeah. can you believe it? I wish I was more intelligent so that I dont have to go to all this agony. fuck life.
honestly, I dont get it, why is it that my mother doesnt understand me? why is it that I should alwyas be the one understanding her? sometimes I feel like I am already burned out. I am just so tired.
I know that they try to do what they think is best for you, but sometimes, they just destroy my character.
I am so freaking tired. period. they say one thing and yet they do another.
I dont want an online degree!!!damnit!
I want a structured classroom with oldfashioned learning techniques.
what is the main purpose of me studying nursing?
so that I can earn. FAST. that is the freaking main reason why. this is the same reason why i am not going to study medicine. this is the same reason why i am not studying pharmacy.
so why should I go study RN for 2 years then study another 2 yrs for my BSN? that is 4 freakin years?! sana nag aral na rin ako ng medicine diba? why? why? why?
I told my mom, mommy, If I wouldnt get acepeted in the advance BS, i will study in the philippines advanced BS. she agreed. now somebody tells her there is this online things and now she wants me to take that. what the fuck is this? I dont know what to do. I am so messed up.
fine. I finally agreed to my mother's wish. she wants me to be a nurse. fine. to make YOU happy i'll be a nurse. but on one condition: I'd be a BSN. a bachelor of Science in nursing. yes. I dont want to be an RN only. I want to be a BSN-RN graduate. jeez. please leave me some pride. I dont even have pride left inside me anymore. i dont know if its even pride. my dream of becoming a doctor is becoming dimmer by the minute. the dream that has been my source of energy to study hard and to aim for up is now being extinguished fast.
no, its not by me, its by my mother. yeah. can you believe it? I wish I was more intelligent so that I dont have to go to all this agony. fuck life.
honestly, I dont get it, why is it that my mother doesnt understand me? why is it that I should alwyas be the one understanding her? sometimes I feel like I am already burned out. I am just so tired.
I know that they try to do what they think is best for you, but sometimes, they just destroy my character.
I am so freaking tired. period. they say one thing and yet they do another.
I dont want an online degree!!!damnit!
I want a structured classroom with oldfashioned learning techniques.
what is the main purpose of me studying nursing?
so that I can earn. FAST. that is the freaking main reason why. this is the same reason why i am not going to study medicine. this is the same reason why i am not studying pharmacy.
so why should I go study RN for 2 years then study another 2 yrs for my BSN? that is 4 freakin years?! sana nag aral na rin ako ng medicine diba? why? why? why?
I told my mom, mommy, If I wouldnt get acepeted in the advance BS, i will study in the philippines advanced BS. she agreed. now somebody tells her there is this online things and now she wants me to take that. what the fuck is this? I dont know what to do. I am so messed up.
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