Scared

yep, i am scared. why do i have to feel this way.... its only sept 25, there is roughly 10 days before my DREADED FINAL EXAM in toxicology.

i dont get it... i study a couple of days in advance and yet i still get a low grade. why does it have to be this way? is my brain deteriorating? after every exam, i feel depleted... and after i get the results, my god! i am ready to jump of the bridge!

i feel ashamed of myself. i dont know why this is happening to me. i study HARD. believe me, i do, but i cant just push through. i never new myself as a quitter.... so right now, i am still pushing through. i just hope my efforts will be good enough this time....

pray for me!