fuck!!!!!!!!

I dunno why but I really am annoyed. maybe i'm selfish. I dont know. but why does it always heve to be me adjusting to his time? why do I have to get up really early so that we can talk? WHY?!

maybe its my weakness. maybe its because I fall for efeminate guys (I dont think I spelled that correctly but WHO CARES?!).

I want a guy who can take care of me, who can tell people: "I'll talk to you later, I still have my girl with me" or "I have to spend time with my baby first before I do anything else".

hahaha! yeah right. as if that would happen.

im just pissed off!!!!!!!




why why why why why?!?!?!?! why does it have to be me?!











in the end, i would be the one to take care of myself. noone would take care of me..