3 months and counting....
yep. you read it right. it is already our third month and still going strong... i think. i mean, I am loyal and everything. I also believe that he is also loyal to me. but I am so freaking scared!
I have been through several guys, several of them have cheated on me right under my nose. I know it is wrong for me to think this, but what would make my baby aj different from other guys? I think he is different from other guys but if you ask me why, I couldn't really tell you the reason. It's just a gut feeling I have.
I know, I know, here I am again, wallowing in my insecurity. but I can't help it! I had a boyfriend who was stolen from me right under my nose and we live in the same country for chrissakes! a whole ocean is in between my baby and me right now. how will I know that I will not suffer the same heartache as I did when I was with my past boyfriends?
I have given everything to this guy. he may not know it yet, But I already know. he already has my whole heart and soul. I have not even looked at ANY guy eversince we have been apart. And it says a lot about me. I can say that I have been also loyal to my past boyfriends because i have not cheated on me. I had looked (occassionally, whenever I go out of town... but I dont flirt with them. They flirt with me.), I didn't go out with anyone even though they would ask me out on dates and everything. but now, with AJ? I dont look at anyone! a person asked me out to watch a movie with him, and I turned him down. I told him I had a boyfriend and even though it was a "friendly date" as he put it, it was not right. I turned him down without a thought even though he was hot and he was cute.
back to the topic.... as I was saying earlier, i have already given everything to my baby aj. he knows almost all of my secrets, all of my fantasies, my dreams, my future. he has the capacity to ruin me with everything he knows about me.
what is the purpose of this post anyway? frankly, i really don't know. maybe im just taking off some of my insecurity or something. its a good thing noone knows my blog or else... ugh!
I wish my baby is with me right now. I wish that we would marry in the future. I wish that he would remain loyal to me forever. I wish that he would love me forever.
oh well, this is all wishful thinking.
I have been through several guys, several of them have cheated on me right under my nose. I know it is wrong for me to think this, but what would make my baby aj different from other guys? I think he is different from other guys but if you ask me why, I couldn't really tell you the reason. It's just a gut feeling I have.
I know, I know, here I am again, wallowing in my insecurity. but I can't help it! I had a boyfriend who was stolen from me right under my nose and we live in the same country for chrissakes! a whole ocean is in between my baby and me right now. how will I know that I will not suffer the same heartache as I did when I was with my past boyfriends?
I have given everything to this guy. he may not know it yet, But I already know. he already has my whole heart and soul. I have not even looked at ANY guy eversince we have been apart. And it says a lot about me. I can say that I have been also loyal to my past boyfriends because i have not cheated on me. I had looked (occassionally, whenever I go out of town... but I dont flirt with them. They flirt with me.), I didn't go out with anyone even though they would ask me out on dates and everything. but now, with AJ? I dont look at anyone! a person asked me out to watch a movie with him, and I turned him down. I told him I had a boyfriend and even though it was a "friendly date" as he put it, it was not right. I turned him down without a thought even though he was hot and he was cute.
back to the topic.... as I was saying earlier, i have already given everything to my baby aj. he knows almost all of my secrets, all of my fantasies, my dreams, my future. he has the capacity to ruin me with everything he knows about me.
what is the purpose of this post anyway? frankly, i really don't know. maybe im just taking off some of my insecurity or something. its a good thing noone knows my blog or else... ugh!
I wish my baby is with me right now. I wish that we would marry in the future. I wish that he would remain loyal to me forever. I wish that he would love me forever.
oh well, this is all wishful thinking.
posted by vincristine @ 9:08 AM
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