Scared of love
yep, you read it right. Actually, i am wondering if i am scared of love. i have been in a lot of relationships and flings but was not really there. yes, i was attached to those guys, and yes i would say that I have loved them, but all of them didn't last long. it would last for a couple of years but it would suddenly end. i didn't have any regrets. i learned a lot of lessons from these people. they are the ones who helped me be this way. i believe that they made me stronger.
And then there is LOVE. this is the love that i think i am feeling right now.
At my age, i think i met this wonderful guy who can make me smile just by thinking about him. i admit, he is not perfect, he has his flaws, but for me, he is just right.
he has this innocence about him that i want to protect him from all the harshness of life. He is also a gentleman at all times. I know i can count on him when the need arises. we share the same outlook on life that probably everyone would laugh at us if they can hear us talking about our principles. we also have our differences, but those differences are just minimal.
maybe it is too early to tell, maybe the distance between is is just too great, but i can't help it. i just love him to much that i hurt everytime i think of him. that's how much i miss him and love him.
i feel so scared. i mean, being a couple at this distance is just so hard. you can never be there for that person and same for him too.
Will it last long? is my love for him the same as his love for me? will our love be enough for us to endure those long, and cold sleepless night? Will this love be strong enough to fight all the temptations near us? will it be enough to last us throughout our lifetime?
our memories are so little that sometimes when i am so sleepy, i tend to forget those little details that when i wake up, i try to capture them again, one by one and piece by piece, hoping, that i would be able to keep those few memories whole.
If i have a video cam i would have taped each of our time together so that i could preserve them forever. and if i would feel sad, i would just have to take it out, see those precious moments and i know i would feel whole again.
don't get me wrong, i have those memories locked in my heart forever. they are etched inside my heart so deep that removing those memories full of love and happiness would just destroy me.
So please don't blame me if i tell you i am scared of love. I think I am just too scared of loving you so much.
And then there is LOVE. this is the love that i think i am feeling right now.
At my age, i think i met this wonderful guy who can make me smile just by thinking about him. i admit, he is not perfect, he has his flaws, but for me, he is just right.
he has this innocence about him that i want to protect him from all the harshness of life. He is also a gentleman at all times. I know i can count on him when the need arises. we share the same outlook on life that probably everyone would laugh at us if they can hear us talking about our principles. we also have our differences, but those differences are just minimal.
maybe it is too early to tell, maybe the distance between is is just too great, but i can't help it. i just love him to much that i hurt everytime i think of him. that's how much i miss him and love him.
i feel so scared. i mean, being a couple at this distance is just so hard. you can never be there for that person and same for him too.
Will it last long? is my love for him the same as his love for me? will our love be enough for us to endure those long, and cold sleepless night? Will this love be strong enough to fight all the temptations near us? will it be enough to last us throughout our lifetime?
our memories are so little that sometimes when i am so sleepy, i tend to forget those little details that when i wake up, i try to capture them again, one by one and piece by piece, hoping, that i would be able to keep those few memories whole.
If i have a video cam i would have taped each of our time together so that i could preserve them forever. and if i would feel sad, i would just have to take it out, see those precious moments and i know i would feel whole again.
don't get me wrong, i have those memories locked in my heart forever. they are etched inside my heart so deep that removing those memories full of love and happiness would just destroy me.
So please don't blame me if i tell you i am scared of love. I think I am just too scared of loving you so much.
posted by vincristine @ 11:21 AM
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