IF....

I remembered one time when my bf asked me that what if, I never met him, who would I be dating right now. I paused for a long time, because I didnt want to say who it would be, although there was only one person in my mind.

then I told my bf. he seems sad when I told him who it was. I guess he feels threatened because I am extremely close to this guy right now.


but what if? what if I was with this guy right now? what would I be doing right now? maybe i would take up nursing instead since I dont want to leave him here in the US while im in the philippines studying again. maybe i wouldn't have to work as hard since he is already well established in his career and has his own home and job and everything. maybe i would really be happy with him. maybe every time we go to work we would always eat together and enjoy every waking moment having fun with each other.

they are all maybes but it would never happen. the only time this would happen is IF my BF would break up with me because I would definitely not break up with him.

he may not be all those things the other person is, but I love him.